2014 // Random

Sekarang 2014 loh. January's coming to its end, minggu depan udah februari. Cepet abis, I know right. Minggu depan mulai kuliah semester 2, setelah seminggu ini ribet tiap hari bolak balik ke kampus ngurusin bayaran, ketemu dosen pembina akademik, ngisi krs dll dst dsb. And I get to know my IPK at last!!! Alhamdulillah. Bisa dibilang gak jelek tapi jg gak terlalu bagus karena masih below 3,5 but it's okay dan gue masih boleh ngambil 20 sks semester ini. Btw kemarin tanggal 23 gue 4 bulanan sama Vito. Berasanya cepet bangeeet secara baru kenalan seminggu setelah kuliah pertama pas baru mulai semester 1, terus 3 minggu kemudian jadian, tau-tau sekarang udah 4 bulan aja. Emang sih 4 bulan kyk belom ada apa-apanya, but we've been through a lot of things and praise the lord, we're still riding through ups and downs in our roller coaster ride together (amin). Lets just say, I'm incredibly happy and we're doing just fine :)

Gue boseeeeeeeeeeeeeen.

Bosen libur udah sebulan lebih, with literally nothing to do.

Gak ngapa-ngapain.

Vito lagi futsal.

Bosen main sims3.

Butuh lagu-lagu baru.

Hp lemottt karena kebanyakan foto ada 2,455.

Dashboard tumblr isinya lg gak menarik.

I'm running out of shampoo.

I ate like a pig today.

I miss my bitches.

I have no clue why am I typing all those random things above.

Until next time ;)

College

It's been months since I wrote my last post so yea, hello again (sampe bosen) ;D

Gue udah kuliah sekarang, udah sebulan lebih. Kuliah dimana? Di UPJ. Kalo gue ngomong UPJ, pasti pada "dimana tuh?" "apaan tuh?" malah ada yg sampe ngomong "Universitas Pelita Jaya ya?". Ngga kok, gak ngenes. Jadi UPJ itu Universitas Pembangunan Jaya, kampus baru gt dan emang baru 3 angkatan. Tp gue nyaman bgt sama temen-temen, dosen-dosen kecuali dosen English Bindo sama Ekonomi Mikro dan lingkungan kampus. Terus benefitnya......kampus gue deket rumah. HAHAHA. Baru aja kemarin maghrib-maghrib spesial balik ke kampus buat ngerjain tugas Psikologi analisa film buat UTS. 

Ini hari Jumat dan Senin besok udah UTS. Gue nggak tau gimana nanti nilai UTS gue karena gue gak fully paying attention di matkul2 tertentu kyk Logika Matematika apalagi Bahasa Indonesia, yes they sucked. Tugas-tugas mulai dari paper, video stopmotion buat fisika (iya, manajemen belajar fisika juga), presentasi, sampe project di google drive udah membabi buta dari seminggu yg lalu. 2 jam sebelum gue nulis ini gue baru banget nyelesain tugas buat UTS PTIK. Sebenernya jadwal kuliahnya gak banyak-banyak amat, dan mata kuliahnya cuma dikit, tapi hari Selasa  sama Jumat yg super malesin dari pagi sampe sore full. And I used to hate Monday tapi sejak kuliah gue cinta sm hari senin karena masuk jam 11 dan matkul nya cuma 1, yayness. However di kampus gue ketemu lagi sm sahabat gue waktu SMP, Angel. Dia Akuntansi dan di semester 1&2 fakultas Ekonomi selalu bareng kelasnya jadi gue 1 kelas lagi sama dia, dan satu kelompok Liberal Arts juga. Terus gue ketemu sm 1 cowok paling sok galak sok jaim sok jutek dan tukang tidur dikelas yg ternyata bawel iseng manja terus baru ketauan 'rada-rada' yg ended up jadi pacar gue, namanya Vito. The funny thing is we went to the same primary & elementary school but we didn't know each other until college started. Dia juga Akuntansi, otomatis gue sekelas sama dia kl matkul ekonomi. The point is I'm happy with my college life & I love all the people in it. Tbh I really miss posting in my blog everyday like I used to do in junior high tp sekarang laziness overload karena udah capek sm kuliah huahaha ttyl :)

Blab

Guess you've made up your mind, dude? It's all clear now hahaha and well you sure do have a lot of fun right? Whoops I mean "fun" for exact :) So yea just get tf outta my life. I should've known you better from the start but no need for that now.....Enough with the cheesy talk and lets proceed to what am I exactly doing now. Here I am, barely doing nothing. It's 2 am and I can't sleep. Guess you already know why....oh yes those thoughts (here comes another cheesy talks) but this time I'd rather think about college. Yes baby college is coming up on 2-3 months. I really hate to admit this but too much holiday's no good either. High school is off and college starts within September. 3 months are surely a longass time if you spend it doing nothing at home, ain't got no money as well, having your friends going to the college earlier. College life seems fun....idk how it's gonna be (for me). I need something to do during this longass months of gabutness yea shit I need a job. Actually Idk what am I really talking about but I just keep on typing what's inside my mind without deleting any words or even letters I know this is sucks you don't need to read this. And yea now I got sleepier so Imma turn this thing off & get some sleep bye suckas

100

So yea I got totally nothing to do and I was looking through my old posts on facebook and I found this. And I refilled them and here they are:

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Coffee  

2. Last phone call: Adiba  

3. Last text message: Alura  

4. Last song you listened to: Demons - Imagine Dragons  

5. Last time you cried: Few hours ago   

HAVE YOU EVER  

6. Dated someone twice: Yes  

7. Been cheated on: Ya, crap. 

8. Kissed someone & a regretted it: Positive  

9. Lost someone special: Yes  

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: Yes but didn't throw up    

LIST THREE FAVORITE PEOPLE:  

12. Grandpa  

13. Mom  

14. Alura  

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:   

15. Made a new friend: Yes  

16. Fallen out of love: Yes  

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes :'D  

18. Met someone who changed you: Not yet  

19. Found out who your true friends were: DEF! 

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Hell yes  

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes 

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Idk  

23. How many kids do you want to have: 2 or 3  

24. Do you have any pets: Yes  

25. Do you want to change your name: Maybe  

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Threw a party  

27. What time did you wake up today: 11:40 I think  

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Forgot  

29. Name something you CANNOT wait: COLLEGE! Def

30. Last time you saw your Mother: An hour ago  

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My past  

32. What are you listening to right now: Clarity Acoustic  

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes  

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Him  

35. Most visited webpage: Tumblr of course  

36. Whats your real name: Fianna Rachmadiani  

37. Nicknames: Fianna, Fin, Fi  

38. Relationship Status: Complicated  

39. Zodiac sign: Virgo  

40. Male or female?: Female  

41. Elementary?: Pembangunan Jaya (most of the time)  

42. Middle School?: 68 Junior High School  

43. High school/college?: SMAN 6 Mahakam / U of I (soon)  

44. Hair colour: Black  

45. Long or short: Short  

46. Height: 159 cm  

47. Do you have a crush on someone? : No  

48: What do you like about yourself?: My nails I guess  

49. Piercings: Ears  

50. Tattoos: No(t) (yet)  

51. Righty or lefty: Righty    

FIRSTS:  

52. First surgery: Forgot  

53. First piercing: When I was a newborn  

54. First best friend: Forgot  

55. First sport you joined: Aquatic  

56. First vacation: Anyer maybe   

57. First kiss: 

58. First pair of trainers: Forgot    

RIGHT NOW:  

59. Eating: Nope  

60. Drinking: Nope  

61. I'm about to: Sleep  

62. Listening to: My playlist  

63. Waiting for: Nothing  

YOUR FUTURE:  

64. Want kids?: Hell yes  

65. Get Married?: Of course  

66. Career?: Chef / Musician / Artist / Manager    

WHICH IS BETTER:  

67. Lips or eyes: Lips  

68. Hugs or kisses: Both  

69. Shorter or taller: Taller  

70. Older or Younger: Older  

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Half romantic, half spontaneous.  

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice Arms  

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive  

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship  

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Troublemaker    

HAVE YOU EVER:  

76. Kissed a stranger: Never ever  

77. Drank hard liquor: Yes  

78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes  

79. Sex on first date: HELL NO!  

80. Broken someone's heart: Maybe  

81. Made someone cry: Yes

82. Been arrested: Nope  

83. Turned someone down: Maybe  

84. Cried when someone died: Of course.  

85. Fallen for a friend?: Yea    

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:  

86. Yourself: Sometimes  

87. Miracles: Sometimes  

88. Love at first sight: Hmm  

89. Heaven: Yes  

90. Santa Claus: Big no.  

91. Kissing on the first date: Nope 

 92. Angels: sometimes.    

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:  

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfried: No  

95. Did you sing today?: Of course 

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Nope  

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 8 months ago  

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 11/10/12  

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes for now  

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes

Thoughts

Hey there.

These days are rough for me, I can tell. And all of a sudden I get this mellow kind of feeling that makes me randomly spilling out these words. Do you remember the feeling of having butterflies flying inside your tummy when you fall in love? The chills you get everytime you see his smile, hear his voice, talk to him, everytime you spend your day with him around you. And as time goes by, those butterflies tragically mutate into those harmful creatures that rip your body inside and out, makes you hard to breathe, and the thoughts that eats you alive, the thoughts of what he used to be; what we used to be back then and you cry yourself to sleep everynight because it's all gone----wiped clean. 

I might've been strong enough. I know I can be even stronger and tougher, but there comes a day where I don't want (or can't) be strong anymore. I might've just sat down and did absolutely nothing, suffocate with the massive pain. I didn't want to hurt you back, I kept forgiving and forgiving, I got hurt for the same reason. People nowadays keep on forgiving even the biggest or the worst mistake just because they don't wanna lose the person they love, though they know that having that person in their life will make them suffer even more. Love has become an easy word to say, people get hurt by a same reason; yes, the love itself.  At first it's making you happy, so happy you could die, makes you feel like you're the happiest person in the world, makes you fly so high. Then as days goes by it starts to hurt. At first it hurts a little so you still can bear it an it'll make you crave for more. Then it hurts more, more, more even when it hurts so much, you're still holding on because you're still blind. It's hard when you have to fight the thoughts of leaving because you still believe that you and him can still work this thing out, you keep giving him chances that he obviously don't deserve. You didn't realize that he has turned into a demon he said he would never be. And what makes it worse is the thought that he would never hurt you the way he did before now that you're the one who ends up hurting the most. Your days doesn't feel bright anymore, you lose your hope, and you fall down. But the funny thing is at the time you've made up your mind and decide to walk away, he didn't let you. He'll say he wants you to stay because he still loves you yet he doesn't respect you. You'll realize that there's no reason left to stay, and you'll say "I'm still leaving, I can't do this anymore. I do love you, but I love myself more. If being with you no longer make me happy, then I'd rather be alone. I tried and you didn't, I'm done. Have fun" as you walk away.

To be continued

2012

Welcome 2012! Ok this is so late but it's been a few months since the last time I wrote my last post. I got a lot of things to tell y'all and this is gonna be a long post for sure selamat pegel-pegel bacanya :D

1. New Year's Eve

Well, I spent my New Year's Eve with my big family of Bachtiar (dari nyokap) di Hotel Santika Teraskota, BSD. We took 4 rooms trs anak-anak roomnya disatuin, and then semuanya bercanda trs sharing-sharing lah ada yg sibuk main game dll and I made a video isinya kesan pesan dr sepupu gue yg paling kecil sampe om-tante gue selama 2011 tapi blm gue edit dan itu se-ru-ba-nget. Siangnya nonton di Teraskota, nonton Alvin&The Chipmunks 3 berhubung sepupu gue masih pada piyik haha. Dan tanggal 31 Desember itu ulangtahun bokap gue jdnya we planned to gave him a surprise, berhubung siang sampe abis maghrib bokap-nyokap-nenek-om-tante gue pada ke rumah adeknya bokap gue yg di Nusa Indah dan dihotel tinggal gue, sepupu-sepupu gue dan beberapa om-tante gue yg lain jadinya gue sama sepupu gue ngambil kue yg dititipin di receptionist (karena di kamar ga ada cooler) trs semuanya ngumpul dan ngumpet di kamar yg buat keluarga gue. Surprisenya hampir gagal gara-gara pas om gue nyuruh gue ngasih tau ke nyokap kalo bokap mau di surprisein bokap gue udah keburu dateng akhirnya pura-pura pintu kamar gue nya ga bisa kebuka&bokap gue disuruh ngurus kartu ke bawah, finally bokap gue balik and ta daaaa "surpriiise!" abis itu makan-makan kue deh. Pas jam 10 gue ikut bokap nyokap ke rumah adeknya bokap gue yg di Nusa Indah itu and then I spent 2 hours before new year disana dgn bakar-bakaran trs main uno dan joget-joget sama bude gue terus jam stgh12 balik ke hotel dan ternyata sepupu-sepupu gue pada masang petasan di parkiran hotel super berisik ahahaha terus jam 12 nonton fireworks yg dari Teraskota nya abis itu tidur berempat sm Mama (nenek) sm bang Firsa sm Rayhan begadang sampe jam setengah3an trs paginya jam 8 dibangunin lg deh super capek but my new year's eve was uberfun :D

2. My Report Card

Karena sekolah gue abalan jadinya gue baru terima rapot Jumat kemaren tanggal 14 sementara sekolah lain udah dr sebelom liburan natal. Udah harap-harap cemas gara-gara nilai Matematika gue dibawah kkm taunya gue ranking 16 terus nilainya alhamdulillah banyak 8 sama 9nya huihihihi selama SMA blm pernah ranking diatas 25 padahal..........okedeh next target semester ini harus 10 besar ya amin!

3. Skipped school

Well, I skipped school today. Jam 4 pagi gue kebangun gara-gara perut gue keram banget trs gue dikasih obat sm nyokap then I tried to sleep again dan perut gue makin sakit terus gue diare......alhasil gue skip school. Blame on Keripik Singkong Karuhun. Enaknya gak ada obat, pedesnya lebih dr Maicih terus sekali makan gak bisa stop meskipun udah kepedesan sampe mau nangis. Tp gue gak kapok kok, and I'm still craving for more :-D

I guess that's it peeps, I'll see you around. Toodl-oo!

Ltns

Hey! How's life? Long time no see...it's been 1month since I wrote my last post, right? Hehehe. So...I'm gonna tell you a few things. Sebenernya ya gak ada perubahan sih hidup gue gitu-gitu aja kok gak ada yg penting -_- tp daripada ini blog gak keurus mending nyampah dikit gapapa lah ;;) Ok here we go:

1. I'm officially 16 :D It means setaun lagi gue dapet sim sama ktp HEHEHE. Pas ulangtaun kemaren I got some present(s) from my pals hehe dari Loven dapet kue, dia yg bikin loh :) Terus dr Bella&Sherpa dapet buku&alat tulis Stitch, thankyou guys :) Dari Lula dapet boneka Shaun The Sheep. And last but not least, dapet Lego Watch+a bucket of white roses+Clairmont chocolate cake dari Putro, big thanksss babe! *hugs *kisses
2. Lebaran. Lebaran taun ini paling kontroversial ya keanya, sampe ribut segitunya :| Tp saya lebaran hari selasa hehehehehe. Selasanya ngumpul di rumah kakaknya bokap yg paling tua, trs rabunya lebaran di keluarga nyokap. Tapi Mama (nenek dr Ibu) sakit dan di opname di Medistra, jadinya lebaran pagi-pagi ngumpul di rumah sakit trs dari rumah sakit ngumpul keluarga Arifin dirumah kakaknya mama, Oma Bea, di Veteran. Dari sana ngumpul di Cipete, trs malemnya ke keluarga Ayah lagi trs besok-besoknya (masih) keliling keluarga bokap sampe hari ke 4, saking banyaknya ngga selesai-selesai o_O
3. My new class. XI IPS 1. Awalnya krik bgt ini kelas, sampe mau pindah. Mana temen duduk tiap hari ganti, trs yg dari kelas lama cm dikit. Bukan cm dikit sih, cm 2 orang sebenernya, Putri sama Diba. Akhirnya sekarang gue duduknya sama Elte, yg superduper mirip kea Sherpa. Kelakuannya, cara ngomongnya, beneran berasa duduk sm Sherpa wkwkwk asik sih. Terus juga gue mulai akrab sama anak-anak kelasan, ngga diem-dieman kea waktu awal masuk seengganya. Terus udah mulai pada keliatan aslinya, yg ngelawak udah mulai ada, kelasnya jd seru, jd ngga pengen pindah :P
4. Homeworks&Exams. Liburan ngga berarti bebas dari tugas..........yayayaya bagus bgt emang, tugas numpuk dan gue belom nyentuh buku sama sekali dari awal liburan dan masuk-masuk langsung ulangan awal semester loh guyssss ndakphapha kok ndakphapha :_) modal remed ini palingan, kea kelas 10. Gagal pmdk nih roman-romannya.........
5. Saya-ketagihan-tumblr. Hehehehe. Kalo udah buka tumblr bisa berjam-jam didepan laptop, trs kalo bawa laptop ke sekolah juga yg ada malah buka tumblr bukannya belajar. Entah kenapa semua yg di tumblr tuh sehati bgt sama yg dialamin di kehidupan sehari-hari, trs gue suka buka tumblrnya notmybeautifulhome, foto-foto rumahnya keren-keren bgt coy (masih terobsesi jd arsitek-_-) sama kl galau bukanya leilockheart trs ngeliatin(+ngesave) image yg ada quotes-quotes galaunya HEHE. Sebenernya banyak sih cm gak bisa disebutin satu-satu -_- Just follow my tumblr ;)

Yaudah deh capek ngetik, toodl-oo!